Early in the morning

Well today or yesterday i should say was alright. Again i was working. Big surprise. Katie called so i picked up the phone and chatted since Fred the freak was no longer there for the afternoon. Then i was driving home when i called Katie and she tells me her mother won't pick up her phone and she needed a lift. So I picked up Katie from Target since she was on her quest in search of the ED WOODS film. As i dropped her off, she invited me in to show me the trailer for the latest Tim Burton movie Corpse Bride which apparently comes out on my birthday. As i told her i plan on driving to FSU to see this movie on my birthday. Hopefully that will work out. Umm what else. Well i finally ate chinese food. Ive been having withdrawal symptoms. Haven't had in like two weeks so it was pure sweetness when i ate it. Then Kat and Kassim came over and we all enjoyed a good showing of Anchorman. Then kt and i got a workout on my brother's elliptical rider thing that supposedly works the thighs but mostly i feel it in my butt. well we talked and laughed and soon it was time that both left. Then well im here now. Writing. Updating. Ive posted a few comments. that was fun. Read some journals. Got pissed off. I just read about Andrea. It really upsets me. I feel like no matter what ive said or what i have done for her in the past, nothing will change at all. And rachel, i am so very sorry you have to deal with her crap. I wish i was there to say something to her or just to smack her. I have never been so disappointed in someone before. She just lost any respect and hope i had in for her. I just don't think i can look at her at all when Kat and I go to FSU. I really hope she won't talk to us cuz i will have nothing to say to her. I hate losing a friend but i refuse to have her ruin things for Rach, Brit and everyone else she has hurt. Maybe losing the best people she has ever met in her lifen will make her change but i doubt it. The girl has no willpower to change for the better and only lives for her own self-destruction. It sucks to feel like i have failed in tryin to help her but there is not much we can all do when she won't bother to help herself out. Im sorry if this is a bugger. I try to remain positive but its sad to hear her do this to people i love. And i cared about her so much and it kills to think how she is hurting the people that i really love the most in this world. Its funny how you think you know someone and they turn around only to really show their true selves. Ha to think- i try not to cry and i usually do a good job of it but this has really made me angry and sad. So yes i am in tears as i write this. Its sad that i can believe everything that she has done. She was a good friend and we had so much fun but it was all just an act. She was different around us but now she is lettin her true self out. Ill explode on her if she talks to me. I think if she does everyone will see the really pissed off side of me. Ill do my best to remain calm but she seriously has hurt me by pullin this shit. Im so sorry Rachel that she has spread lies, made you worry, yelled at you when all you did was try to be a good friend. I just dont think any words right now describe exactly how i feel. Its a struggle between wanting to talk to her and ripping her head off and shoving her body through a paper shredder. I think im goin to just grab a tissue cuz now my nose is running and im goin to sleep. Have to get up early to go to lunch since its my aunts birthday. Yeah i have to get up early for lunch at twelve. I know im pathetic. But i have yet to sleep into three in the afternoon this summer. Im drained. As i told katie while we watched War of The Worlds- Im on an emotional rollercoaster. Sorry people- no words of wisdom or things to contemplate for tonight. Ill update later. Perhaps then ill give you all something to ponder. NO WAIT! most of this live journal has been sad and well upsetting for me. I wont allow that. For every sad moment, i would die to fill it with laughter. I refuse to not give laughter one last chance for tonight- Yes im whipping out the Jack Handey book as well as another tissue. "Fear can somtimes be a useful emotion. For instance, say you're an astronaut on the moon and you fear that your partner has been turned into Dracula. The next time he goes out for moon pieces, wham! You just slam the door behind him and blast off. He might call you on the radio and say he's not Dracula but you just say 'Think again, bat man."
"If you define cowardice as running away at the first sign of danger, screaming, and tripping and begging for mercy then yes, Mister Brave Man, I guess i am a coward."

Laughter- My medication for sadness